Feelings from Another

His eyes adjusted to the morning light now protruding through the window of Kyliska's bedchambers. Andissiel turned to Kyliska's side of the bed only to discover she had already awoken and left. It was no surprise to him to find her already gone. The last few weeks she had been acting strange, as if something was on her mind but she did not want to speak of it. Whatever it was, he knew she would come to him in the end explaining her odd behavior. He arose from bed and walked over to the window to look outside. The sun hung in in the sky like a yellow orb hovering over the city. A large shadow protruding from Sunfury Spire cast itself over Murder Row, causing it to look ever more devious from Dayfire Spire. His eyes continued to scan the ground until he saw his love, Kyliska.


Kyliska had been walking with her sister Biara in the Court of the Sun. Both women seemed to be engrossed into a heavy discussion. Moments passed and the two sisters hugged and parted ways as Biara began to walk towards Sunfury Spire and Kyliska returning to Dayfire Spire. Andissiel turned away from the window and dressed himself . Whatever it was that was bothering her he would do his best to be at her side showing support. He grabbed some flowers out of a vase in the room and left to meet Kyliska in the main entry of the spire. Upon walking down the long stone hallways of the spire he passed many of the guards who all seemed to eye him cautiously. Who could blame them? He thought to himself. His life was turned inside out and he knew he gave no one any reason to trust him..only Kyliska did.


As he turned the corner into the main entry hall his eyes caught wind of Kyliska, just not entering the room. He observed the fact that she was not wearing her armor, something out of the ordinary for her. Instead she wore a luxurious red silken dress with yellow trim. Her hair blond hair relaxed on her shoulders as it caught the last bit of sunlight before she entered the room. Andissiel walked up to her with the flowers from the room behind his back. He knew it would prove a humorous gesture if not at all sweet considering she would know where the flowers came from. He watched as Kyliska spotted him and a smile quickly formed. She walked up before him and looked at him as he brought the flowers from his back to the front of him. Kyliska paused for a moment, but began to laugh as she had already recognized where the flowers had come from. "Aww, that is sweet. Thank you my love." as she leaned in for a kiss. He smiled as the two met each others lips. "Now what flowers are you going to bring me to replace the ones you took from the vase?" she said playfully. He continued to smile at her. Andissiel thought for a moment on where to take Kyliska to take her mind off of whatever it was that was bothering her just as his eyes caught a glimpse of a Sin'Dorei man at the entry way into the spire.


Andissiel immediately noticed the man standing before him. Hauk Fenshire. The Sin'Dorei hunter was clearly agitated by the facial expression he made as he noticed Kyliska and Andissiel embrace one another. "I knew I smelt the filth of a Kaldorei nearby...." Fenshire said as the anger in his eyes grew. Andissiel watched Kyliska turn from him and back to Fenshire. "Hauk...?" she said softly, still surprised to see him. Fenshire turned his back and had already begun to walk away. Andissiel was glad to see him leave but in the same time...he wished they could be friends. The hunter knew so much that Andissiel did not. Kyliska looked up to him with eyes saddening. "Go to him...I will not mind my love. He is your friend and if he wishes to speak to you without me then I shall not intrude." Kyliska silently nodded and turned to call out for Hauk, whom already was out of sight. Andissiel watched Kyliska disappear from his sight and alone he stood. He stood in silence thinking to himself. Did Fenshire have feelings for Kyliska or did he simply wish to make his life as miserable as possible? " Andissiel looked down at his bow in which his hands now tightly gripped. "We have withstood death itself...whatever the reason that hunter has Kyliska will always be love me. " Andissiel left the spire and whistled once he walked into the sunlight. His faithful and loyal companion, Duststalker ran up to him from the spire stables. The two ventured off into Eversong Woods.

Negotiation and Battles

Kyliska yawned sleepily as she stretched in her bed. She had slept in this morning due to the long battles she had endured last night. Kyliska smiled as she thought of all the glorious fighting that was done by her and her allies. She always liked to fight the Alliance, but this time the Horde had more numbers! Usually the Alliance greatly outnumber them and they are eventually driven out of the area. This time, the Horde took over Southshore! Horde banners were flapping in the wind all over the little town.

To think it all started with a small negotiation. Kyliska had thought that Biara was mad when she said that the gnome Jazari had wanted to talk to her alone just outside Tarren Mill. Of course Kyliska would not let her friend go alone, so Varimarris and herself decided to accompany Biara, but stay in hiding just in case this was an ambush from the Guild Watch. Kyliska didn’t trust that gnome or any of them as far as she could throw them!

The talk seemed to be going alright at first. Then Syrea showed up and she knew that Kyliska and Varimarris were there as well, so they came out of hiding to join Biara. There was a lot of fighting and yelling going on between the two Guild Watch members. Strange words were being thrown around that Kyliska had no idea what was being said. Kyliska sighed. She grew bored of all the talking. She wanted some action and could barely contain herself. She had to try her hardest not to just attack Jazari. He was only a few feet away from her, but she had promised Biara that she would not attack unless they attacked first.

Biara had found out that Jazari knew where the book that she wanted was. It was indeed still in Southshore! Kyliska and Biara had gone there months ago trying to retrieve this book, but they had been thrown out of Southshore by the Guild Watch. Now Jazari and Syrea were here, saying they could just have the book? Syrea had even said that she would get it for them. Kyliska did not believe that they would just let Biara just have the book. Biara had become too trusting at this moment in time in Kyliska’s mind. She should have just killed them when she had the chance.

Biara was done waiting and decided that they would just go and get the book themselves. Kyliska was happy that she had decided this, since she knew there would be an ambush waiting for them in the small town. Kyliska smiled slyly as she anticipated the fight that was about to happen. As they were about to move to the town she could hear the sound of a motorcycle coming towards them. She looked up to see her good friend Hauk Fenshire ride up to them. Kyliska ran over to him and gave him a hug while jumping into the sidecar. Two more Blood Knights, Xsara and her consort came along for the fight as well.

They rode to Southshore killing some guards along the way for fun. Kyliska laughed as she reveled in the fight. Her blood lust was starting to surface, this would be a good fight indeed. They headed to the Inn, the book was on the second floor. They managed to kill everyone in the Inn and went to the second floor and searched for the book. Kyliska had a feeling that they had lied to them when they couldn’t find the book at first. Then suddenly she turned around and saw Biara holding the book with a look of pure satisfaction on her face. Kyliska hugged her friend and they laughed together, the book finally was in their possession!

At that moment, a commotion was heard downstairs. Hauk went to the stairwell to see what the problem was. The Guild Watch had showed up. Maybe it wasn’t an ambush, they had just come when the alarms were sounded that the town was being attacked. It didn’t really matter to Kyliska, she just knew that they must fight them. And fight they did! It was a great battle for both sides. The Guild Watch showed up with a great force trying to repel them from the town. Biara’s friend and healer Xsara was wonderful and did not let one of them die. There were explosions of magic, and fire all around them. The sound of blades being clanged together could be heard. Arrows were shooting through the air.

Kyliska wasn’t sure what had happened next. She remembered that suddenly they had more attackers with them. Biara had summoned them somehow and they showed up in great force. The Guild Watch was seething seeing the sheer amount of enemies that outnumbered them for once. They were so used to being the ones outnumbering the Horde that they did not like this imbalance. They decided to take the fighting outside of the Inn, and out in the middle of the town. The Alliance put up a decent fight but were eventually pushed out of their own town. Kyliska and her friends all cheered and stayed in the town for quite some time. Silvermoon Banners were everywhere as were other Horde city banners.

Kyliska thought back to a point in the middle of the battle. Hauk, Noxu and a few others suggested they leave the town. They didn’t want the Horde to sink down to the level of the Alliance and grief their town like they do to the Horde’s towns. Kyliska’s blood lust was very high at this moment and in a fit of rage she had called Hauk an Alliance sympathizer. She didn’t mean it, she didn’t even know why the words had escaped her mouth. There was a standstill in the fighting and Kyliska talked to Hauk, apologizing for her harsh words. He had forgiven her but it was still nagging at Kyliska. She was not used to feeling this way, she usually did not regret things. She never regretted killing Alliance, as she did not view them as innocent in any way. But to say something to a dear friend in the heat of battle that she did not mean grated at her.

Kyliska got out of bed and dressed. There was so much more fighting that was done last night, but she had to go clear her head right now. It was still a little foggy after all the drinking that her, Hauk, and even Resiyn had been doing last night. Drinking did assuage her guilt a little over her words to Hauk, but now she just felt sick. A little sun always made Kyliska feel better. She decided she would sunbathe until she felt more relaxed and then maybe she would go find Biara to see what trouble they could get into this evening. Also she was very curious to see how Biara’s progress with the book was going. She had mentioned that Jazari had put some kind of spell on it. Kyliska hummed to herself as she set out on her day.

The dilemma

Kyliska Sunblade was extremely upset. She didn’t know what had happened. She had been feeling quite good lately. Sirian Sondor had come into her life and made her happy. She was finally starting to get over her feelings for Hauk Fenshire. Hauk had broken her heart when he went back to Redessa Sunsword, but she was his true love. Who was Kyli to stand in the way of that? After the whole mess with Biara’s love spell on Kyli’s armor, things seemed to have calmed down a bit. Her relationship with Sirian was quick, but she had felt like she had known him for a lot longer than she really did. She didn’t know why she felt that way but she was going with the flow. Kyli wasn’t even sure how serious they were, or if they were still able to see other people. They hadn’t talked about that just yet. All she did know for sure was that he had stayed at the Spire for two nights in a row and they had a great time together. Kyli smiled bittersweetly as she thought about those two nights.

Everything was going great. Sirian had been away on some kind of business.
Something to do with his wife. Kyli was concerned about this, but he was not on good terms with his wife, he meant to go to kill her so she would be out of his life forever. She had tried to kill him in the past as well. Kyli thought hard and remembered his wife’s name, Saldoria Nycila Lordaine. He hadn’t told her much about his wife, just that she was an evil rogue that wanted Sirian dead. Kyli felt uneasy that he was going off to find her. She had wanted to go with him, but he made her stay behind, not wanting Saldoria to hurt Kyli. Kyli thought that she could take care of herself being a Blood Knight and all but didn’t press the matter further. This was a personal issue for Sirian and she was going to respect that.

Last night everything changed. Sirian had come to Silvermoon City to meet with Kyli. She was very excited about this because she had missed him so much. But then he started to act strangely and not like himself. Kyliska had a few drinks and had just finished fighting an Alliance raid on Silvermoon. She liked to drink to wind down after a fight. He was giving her a hard time about her drinking. He had never had a problem with it before. He also was saying something about him not liking how much she hated the Alliance and liked to fight them. She tried to tell him that it was her job to fight the Alliance and she had personal reasons to hate them.

He was being very distant though. He was very adamant about Kyli cutting down on her drinking so she finally agreed that she would try to cut down but not give it up completely. She said she would not stop fighting the Alliance though, it was her job and she also enjoyed it. She told him she would not change just because a man wanted her to. Men were allowed to drink as much as they wanted and fight, but women couldn’t for some reason. This angered Kyli to no end. She knew that Sirian was stressed at the moment but that didn’t give him the right to talk to her this way. She cried to him telling him that she didn’t want to fight and he just walked away and told her to go home.


Kyliska yawned not realizing how tired she was after the many fights against the Alliance that she has been doing lately, and her recent fighting with Sirian. She knew it would be hard to sleep tonight because she was so upset, but she decided to head to bed early and then she would hopefully wake up refreshed for the next day. She was going to step up her training, she had heard some comments from her comrades recently and she didn’t want to give them any ammunition to think that she was a bad fighter. It never hurt to get more practice in anyway. Kyli changed into her nightgown and got into bed. Surprisingly, it only took her a few minutes to fall asleep.

Kyli was dreaming about random things such as some of the fights against the Alliance, then her getting her nails done with Biara, to her lunching in Stormwind with Hauk. A sound woke up Kyliska. She rubbed her eyes, still hazy from sleep. She listened intently and recognized the sound of a rogue stealthing and a smile spread across her face. Sirian must be coming to apologize profusely for the way he just treated her. Kyli waited with baited breath for Sirian to come to her bed. It was pitch black in her room, but she could feel him getting closer. Her heart started to beat faster, then she felt lips kiss her very own. Something was different though, something was off. The lips felt different, almost like female lips. Kyliska shook her head to try to get rid of the confusion that she was feeling. She didn’t understand what was happening.

Kyli started to feel different. Her body wouldn’t move. Something was wrong. She licked her lips and tasted something bitter. Her mind raced as she realized what it was. It was a kind of poison! The poison made her body useless. Kyli could feel the bed move as her attacker climbed on the bed and straddled her. Kyli was panicking, she didn’t know what to do, what could she do, she couldn’t even move! Then the pain started. A slow, burning pain that worked its way up her body from her feet to her head. It was almost unbearable. She tried to speak and was able to only whisper.

“Who are you?” she whispered to her attacker.
“Oh you don’t know who I am?” the female voice mocked her.
“No I do not, I know you are some kind of rogue, but that is all….”
“My name is Sally, but my beloved calls me Saldoria.” She started. “I believe you have been with my husband. You will pay for that.” She started. “I mean to hurt him, and by hurting you I will in turn hurt him. He is looking for me and he will be very surprised to find out that I am not where he thinks I am, but here killing you instead.”
“You are lucky you poisoned me rogue, or else I would kick your ass right now!” Kyliska spat at Saldoria.
Saldoria just laughed at Kyli.
“This poison is unlike any other.” Saldoria said. “I made it myself. It’s a very special mixture. As I’m sure you have felt, it will paralyze your body. Then the pain will start, and soon you will be blinded by it. After only a few short hours you will be dead. The poison will shut down every organ in your body. Then I will send a letter to dear Sirian to let him know of your demise.”

Saldoria put her face right in front of Kyliska’s face. She gently caressed her cheek, and then suddenly slapped her hard. She took out one of her daggers and gently traced Kyliska’s arm with it. She dug deeper and drew blood, but not enough to kill her. The poison would do that part for her. She laughed and then got up off the bed. She started to walk towards the window and then grabbed something and turned back towards Kyli. Something was dropped onto her lap. Kyli gasped as she realized it was an arm!

“You long to be in my beloved’s arms.” Sally sneered. “Well here is one of his. I’ll be sure to bring you the other one if you live.”

Kyli watched as her assassian disappeared into stealth and then was gone.

She didn’t know what to do. She couldn’t move how could she call for help? There were many servants at House Dayfire but no one would dare enter her room in the middle of the night. It was times like this that Kyli wished they weren’t so scared of Biara. It was strange but the poison was actually making her tired. She knew that if she fell asleep that she would surely be dead and never wake up. The pain was getting to be unbearable. Her whole body felt like it was on fire. This was the most pain that Kyli had ever felt in her life. The poison was strong, and it felt like it would take her life far sooner than a few hours.

Kyli couldn’t believe that Sirian’s wife had cut off his arm! She was truly an evil woman. How dare she? Kyli wanted to get her hands on that rogue if she lived through this.

Images went through Kyliska’s mind. Images of her past and present. Her life was a good one if this were to be her last night. She finally found a group of friends that she deeply cared for. She would miss Hauk, he was like a brother to her. Biara was the sister she never had, taking her in when her mother was killed, and she looked out for Kyli. There were too many names of her friends but she would miss them all. As her eyes began to close she thought of Sirian. Sirian would come for her, he would realize that Saldoria was not where she was supposed to be and he would save her. But would he get here in time? Then she remembered the fight that her and Sirian had before. Maybe he wouldn’t come for her afterall. Kyli would then die alone, with no one to help her. Kyliska’s eyes finally closed all the way. Her mind was drifting off into sleep, but she could still feel the searing pain. That would be a constant reminder of what had just happened to her until she was dead and gone.

It had been no more than five minutes after Saldoria had disappeared that Sirian would appear out of nowhere opposite of the side Saldoria had vanished from. He wore the mask that he was always seen wearing, his own green eyes looking down to Kyliska, but there was a slight change in those eyes, they were not green as emeralds, perhaps as jade. With a gentle caress he would stroke Kyliska's cheek] " You are quite warm my love, it is now that I confess something most profuse. You are just a fling, a toy, you could never have me. Many lives I have taken with my wife, and you are just another on the list."[/i] he chuckles reflecting on the memory's of his victims. " It is here and now that you should also know....I'm a father. Saldoria will be giving birth to our offspring and that child itself . " Sirian would make his way around the bed, pocketing a few items from the Vanity . " Such simple designs, such narrow views. Its a pity you actually thought I could want anything to do with you. After all this is just a job. "

There would be a illumination in the room, casting shadows all over, the source itself seeming to come from just outside the window . " What the fel?" dropping what he would have pocketed he heads over to the window putting his hands on the handle to open the doors when suddenly the window itself explodes inwards, a figure of sorts crashing through and tackling the body of Sirian. It was hard to distinguish what the body or who the body belonged to now since the light faded just as quickly as it appeared. The bed itself would shake, as the two body's struggle, the sound of something metal being slammed echos in the room momentarily and then a thud.

Sirian would rise up from beside the bed, he would place his hand over Kyliskas head feeling the sweat forming " Hmm, Kyliska Can you say anything?" not getting any initial response Sirian tips a metal finger into a small vial that hung from his belt pouch. He allows his finger to be coated in the substance in the vial then proceeds to nick the back of her hand with that same finger. " I believe that small amount should-" and suddenly the room illuminated itself again, by some magical means. Sirian was be standing there, still touching the back of Kyliska's hand, but now it seemed Sirian was standing behind Sirian?! How could this be? More so one version of Sirian had a blade at the neck of the one standing next to Kyliska.

" Hello Beloved. Have you come to say goodbye to the harlot? I must say you must certainly be desperate to sleep with this one. If my dog had a face like her's I'd shave his rear and teach him to walk backwards" the figure of the second Sirian would snicker, but somehow his voice was not his own. It seemed unstable,.

“ Hello there Sal, its been much too long since we have seen one another.” Sirians body would begin to grow , changing color and shape. The sudden change catches the odd Sirian off guard and steps back only to get a back hand to the face knocking him down. The blow was a heavy blow, knocking her senses back into her. “ You could never hold your disguise as well as I did Saldoria.” Saldoria had lost her focus , her body shifting back to her own shape and size. She rubs her cheek grinning to Sirian before lunging at him with her Dagger aimed for his throat. A slash to his throat would end this , the blade cutting through the air only meets his arm which somehow deflects the blow. Her eyes widen in shock not understanding how that could happen but now was not the time to question it, she immediately dives to the side avoiding the fist aimed to her face. Sirians fist connects with the stone wall , making a small crater into it , with the momentum on his side he spins , throwing another fist to her which she aptly dodges by arching backwards and flipping away landing a few feet away from Sirian. “ My, my, that’s quite a swing you have there beloved. I surely thought I took your arm” she cackles pointing to the bed where Kyliska lay. Sirian could not help but turn his gaze to spot the familiar missing appendage.

This was all the distraction Saldoria needed, while Sirian was observing the decaying arm that once belonged to him , she licked her lips, making sure the toxins had not dried completely. “ Sirian my beloved I only wanted her dead so I could make amends.” her daggers are sheathed, running her hands up along her side to expose the body Sirian once had access to on long passionate nights. “ mmmmh, I’ve missed everything about you Sirian, you’re touch. The warmth, our love.” this would call his attention, giving her a surprised look . Pulling his mask off Sirian exposes the face he always hid from the world. The battle scar his wife had given him running along the right side of his face now having healed but without magical means. “ You mean this Sal? I do not know what got into you but suddenly your trying to kill me.” he throws the mask aside letting it land on the floor.

The two approach each other cautiously and soon, embrace one another followed with a long passionate kiss that to some might seem like it lasted a eternity. Both of them stood there with labored breathing, being lost in one another’s eyes, for once she gives a genuine smile , running a finger between his crotch “ remember that one night….the last night of us Edlan? Remember how we had the one scare that brought us closer?” Sirian only nods slowly “ Well…that was not a scare. I am indeed pregnant with your child…” his eyes widen looking down to her stomach but seeing no swell “ how? You still have your figure?” but he only receives a laugh from Saldoria “ It is early my love, but by the time you realize that you’re going to be dead.”

True to her word Sirian steps back, grabbing at his throat, gagging on something it would seem. He stumbles about gasping for air, crashing into objects in the room , then falls to his knees and soon on his own face . The woman face palms , a unstable laugh echoing in the room “ I’ve finally killed my Beloved Edlan of Sondor. Such a fool to fall for the same trick again!” strutting over to the corpse of her husband she only kicks it to prove he was indeed dead before turning to the “paralyzed” body of Kyliska “ How could you sleep with such a gullible person? You can do better than that ….but then again you too much have been desperate!” she laughs looking back to the body of Sirian but blinks suddenly seeing that it was no longer there. “ What the fel?!”

He came from nowhere, running at Saldoria from behind in perfect silence , landing a open palm blow to her spine with such force she is launched forward into the wall. She would bounced off of the wall landing on back which she kips up facing Sirian with her daggers out “ But how! The toxin should have been paralyzed you !” her lips curl up into a snarl . “ Sal…the only gullible one here is you , to believe I didn’t remember that night.

A moment of silence, as the curtains blow inwards from the broken window and suddenly both of this disappeared. A clash of metal upon metal, sparks flying from every which direction of the room. They were everywhere and no where. One moment Saldoria would be before Kylika stabbing towards her, when suddenly a dark object would parry it and suddenly both disappeared, only to reappear alongside her bed showing her parrying a blow to the shoulder and again they disappeared. Shouts of pain and anger are heard throughout the room and maybe even the spire. Where the vanity had once stood now suddenly breaks, mirrors shatter and soon unseen forces make small craters into the wall. Suddenly they both appear before one another, and almost as suddenly they both land a punch to each others face , with such force they both propel backwards slamming into the wall and slumping down . Again they both stare at one another , panting out of breath. Then in a blink of a eye they were both gone again , appearing from almost nothing but the shadows but they remained din place, hand to hand combat it seems was the way this would end . Siran throwing a uppercut to Saldoria who only matches it with her own, raising a kick to knee him in the groin only to have it meet his own knee.

In this display of a struggle to kill one another there was a sense of intimacy in it, they moved in unison with one another, matching each others blows, where passion was once a term used in the bedroom, it was not being used here. The passion to kill one another with anything and everything they could use. Putting their very heart and soul into the effort.

They were both worn out, but continued the fight. Sirian falls forward using one arm to support his body and throwing a series of kicks towards Saldoria who only blocks them and throws a kick to his face. It connects with his nose sending blood shooting out but again he had vanished ending up behind Saldoria. “ You will Die!” he screams grabbing a hold of skull and running forward , slamming her head into the wall, which he quickly follows up with two punches to the spine and almost as instantly his illusion over his arm fades away, exposing a metal arm and black claws which rakes down on the woman’s back. A cry of pain , her leg arches up kicking sirian In gut to allow her some breathing room from him. She disappears as well ending up in a corner away from Sirian, her own eyes widening at the realization of the metal arm “ how di-” her face goes pale white, her strength waning . “ Wh-what did you do to me Edlan?” but he gave no initial response, he only stalked towards her like a lion about to move in for the kill. With a swipe of his right arm he leaves a three claw marks along her face, sending blood along the walls of Kyliska’s room. Saldora screamed, the pain almost unbearable, the wounds on her back bleeding out as well as burning with a fire, now to match the wound to her face. “ you-you M-m-monster!” she would reach for her dagger only to drop it realizing it weight so much more than she had expected.

“ No, Saldoria, I am your husband, the one that married you and loves you. The only monster here is you. “ and with this his metal hand moves into her stomach, piercing skin and flesh. The womans own eyes widen in shock and awe, whispering something that only sirian could hear. “ That is a lie, I know you are not carrying my child” his hand digging deeper into her only , his wife now falling onto him lifelessly.

Sirian only stepped back pushing the body off of him, but suddenly he freeze’s seeing that Saldoria was not as slim as she had shown and instead now held a rather large swell of a stomach. The world seemed a lot heavier at this moment as he realized that he could peer inside of her wound and saw something which horrified him. “ Wh-what have I done!” the man falls to his knees realizing that the only truth Saldora had given him was that she was indeed carrying his child.

Edit Journal Entry November 12, 2010

Last night was interesting. Hauk has been helping me with my Bloodthistle withdrawal. I knew this would not be easy when he said he would help me. I sometimes feel as if I am not strong enough to handle this. I have tried before and I ended up stabbing my sister. I warned Hauk of this but he wants to still help me. I even pushed him a bit and he still wouldn't leave my side. He wants to see me through this which I appreciate so much. He is such a great friend to me. He took me to the training dummies in Silvermoon to let out my aggression. It helped a little bit but I fought so hard that I think I passed out.

I had the strangest dream last night. Hauk and I were in Eversong by the water. He was saying the niecest things to me. He was saying everything I have ever hoped he would say to me. That he loved me and we could be together. We even kissed! It felt so real at first. My heart was so full of love and I have never felt better. Then something happened and I realized that it wasn't real. He tried to assure me that it was, and that I could go back there anytime I wanted to as long as I still consumed the Bloodthistle.

He would always love me in my drug induced world, in this fake place that I had made up. The idea was tempting. To finally have Hauk love me in return. I wish it was real. It never will be real. My heart has already started to move on, on to Andi. I have to fight this addiction that I have, it is no good for me. My addiction to Bloodthistle, as well as Hauk Fenshire. It isn't fair to Andi, I was honest with him about my feelings for another and he seemed upset but seemed to understand. My heart is sad this morning.

I awoke in Sunsword Spire. Hauk must have taken me there after I passed out. I woke up to the sound of the ocean. I left early this morning to go back home. I hope today is better with the withdrawal. Hauk seems to think it will get worse before it gets better. I am not looking forward to this...

Journal Entry November 22, 2010

 The last few days have been strange. So much has happened, I don't even know where to start. My heart is broken. My sister almost killed me. I do not know what to do. I was near death and Hauk found me last night. I do not know how I can ever repay him for that. He had been searching for me, I'm so glad he was. He brought me to Light's Hope Chapel last night. The healers here are wonderful. I almost feel like myself again! I have a scar on my stomach from the magic Biara cast on me. The healers said that they could remove it if I wanted them to, but I said no. I need to keep it to remember what happened. It will remind me to think of the consequences of my actions.

I now know that it was wrong of me to try to seduce Andi as a way to learn secrets from the Alliance. I did not stay detached and it cost him his life, and almost mine as well. Andi is dead. It feels so strange to even write those words. I loved him. I didn't think I would, but I did. Did I even tell him that? Did he know before he died? I hope so. I know I didn't want to admit it to him, or myself at first, but it was true. Should I seek out Lune to pay my respects? No, that probably would not be a good idea. I will let it be for now.

I asked Hauk to get my ax for me, I will resume my training when I feel better. My mother's necklace was also gone, it must have fallen off when I was thrown off the cliff. I just feel so empty now. My sister hates me, my love is dead, I do not even want to go back to Silvermoon. Andi, I am so sorry for everything I have done. I hope that wherever you are that you can forgive me....

The Shattering

Kyliska stood outside Light's Hope Chapel and smiled. The past few months seemed to fly by. She had been staying there ever since Hauk had rescued her from near death. The Argent Crusade rebuilt Light's Hope Chapel and Kyli had been helping. They had healed her when Hauk brought her there and she just never left. She saw their effort in rebuilding the area and decided to help them out. She was allied with them and wanted to show her support. She heard about everything that happened all around Azeroth. She had not been able to go out and see all of the damage because she was helping out here. She was going to go and lend as much help as she could to her allies.

Kyli sighed as her thoughts turned to Biara. She had not even reached out to her. She looked down at her bracelet that she used to communicate with her. It was slightly burned and didn't work, but she still wore it. She wanted to find Biara to make sure she was ok after everything had happened. She had heard that Silvermoon wasn't affected but she had to make sure. She didn't know how Biara would react to her actually being alive. Would she be mad that Kyli didn't come to find her sooner? Would she be happy to see her sister again? Kyli herself wasn't sure how she was going to feel seeing her again. She still had mixed feelings about what happened. She didn't know if Biara had tried to kill her on purpose or if it was an accident. She had to find out.

Kyli's thoughts also turned to Andi a lot. She wondered what he would have been doing now if he were alive. Would he have even lived through the Shattering as people were calling it? She had heard rumors that Darkshore was destroyed. She wondered if Lune was still alive. Kyli missed Andi more than words could say. She felt incredible guilt over his death, she was the true cause of it. Working with the Argent Crusade helped keep her mind off of it, but it was times like this when she had nothing to do that her mind wandered. She tried to keep as busy as possible. Hard labor is just what Kyli needed after she was healed. She lightlyl touched the scar on her stomach, she would always look at that scar and be reminded of what happened that day. If only she could change things. She would have done so much differently. 

Journal Entry September 15, 2010

Last night was, eventful. I am feeling so many emotions right now I do not even know where to begin. I met with Sirian, or Hush. I believe he was Hush for the beginning of our encounter, he was being quite mean to me but I was upset so I didn't care. I wanted to kill him at first, and he knew this. Then he manipulated me. He wanted me to say that I had loved Sirian, but that was not true, I never loved him, cared for him yes but not love. He took that moment to tell me that I would say Hauk's name in my sleep. I did not know this! Yes I know that Hauk is always in my heart but my head also knows that I will never have him. I know he is in love with Redessa and I do not wish to come between that. My heart is not persuaded as easily as my head though. I was hoping that Sirian could take my mind off of Hauk, and let me love another. We were not given as much time though since Hush was created. I think maybe Sirian was starting to love me but he knew that I could not give my heart openly to him and that is partly why he left me. Or it could have been Hush that left me.

Now that is a whole other story. Hush was created by Biara and now he believes her to be a mother figure! My head hurts from all of this! He tried to hurt her the other night so I do not understand. I think he didn't really mean to hurt her because from what Sirian told me she created him so she can destroy him. I will have to work with Biara to find a way to destroy Hush once and for all and let Sirian live his life how he wants to. Not be conflicted by these two personalities anymore. Just be him.

Sirian was talking to me at the end of our encounter. I felt great sadness and guilt at this. He knew the whole time that I loved Hauk, and he still went after me. I apologized to him and he said he goaded me into it. What is wrong with me? Why can't I forget about Hauk, well not forget , but I wish that I could stop loving him. I will never have a normal relationship if I still love him. I have hurt Sirian because of this and in turn many of my friends do not care for him. I also helped create Hush because I helped him with the spell. Yes Biara created the spell itself but I enacted it! My guilt is tremendous today and I do not know how to allieve it.

Journal Entry September 24, 2010

 I am sad today. My head hurts. I have not been home yet. I know Biara says she wants to talk things over but I'm scared, I'm beyond nervous. She reacted so harshly when she first found out that I am half Kaldorei, I do not know how her mind got swayed so easily. I know Hauk talked to her but still. I'm not looking forward to our eventual meeting. I have been staying at House Sunsword. Hauk is off trying to find Redessa. I should go home. I do not feel totally at ease here. I will go home later today. I just need one more day to myself. I can think here. Sort out all of my emotions before facing them head on.

My head hurts. I have not even been drinking as of late. My head is just too full with so many thoughts and emotions. So much has happened. Will things ever be the same again? I mean really the same? How many people know my secret? How many people will spurn me knowing that I'm tainted? Knowing that my mother was a traitor of the Horde and the Sin'Dorei? Will they blame me for her mistakes? I hope not because I am just as angry at my mother as they will be. I simply cannot understand how she could do that to her people. For love? That just doens't make sense to me! I know love makes you do crazy things, but if Hauk asked me to betray my people to be with him, I could not do it. I have lost all respect for my mother after hearing what she did.

I have a sister too. I should seek her out. Does she even know of me? Would she even want to?

Journal Entry October 15, 2010

 Alone. I feel so alone. I know this is my own doing but it is still hard to take. I miss my sister dearly. I should go back to talk to her. I fear she hates me. And why wouldn't she? I did stab her and leave her for dead. I hate myself for doing that. The blood thistle addiction is getting worse I fear. I have to have it more often than ever before. How do I stop it? I must seek Galvan before I can return to Silvermoon. Biara cannot know about this addiction, she will think I am weak, which I am at the moment. I do not want her to think of me any worse than she already does.

My moods are irrational. Even while on the drug I find that I cannot control my emotions. I used to feel happy right after I had taken it, now I do for a short while and then my mood shifts so suddenly. I thought being away from everyone would help me, but maybe it only made the addiction worse. It's strange not talking to anyone really. A random goblin here or there but that is never good conversation. I miss Dayfire Spire, I miss Biara, I miss Hauk. I feel so empty right now, I must try to rectify things with my sister. I don't know how much longer I can go on this way...

Journal Entry October 18, 2010

I awake refreshed this morning. I had the most wonderful dream last night! I am a little sad to realize it was just a dream, but it was wonderful nonetheless! Hauk and I had a romantic picnic in Dalaran. We were talking and flirting and just having a great time. He even kissed me! Multiple times! There was no talk of anyone else, just about us and our love for one another. Then we went on a lovely flight in Northrend. We flew over the beautiful water and could see the stars. It was such a glorious sight. I was finally with the man that I love and everything was perfect! He held my hand as we flew higher and higher. We finished cuddling by the fire like we have done in the past.

It was so sad to wake up and to not have Hauk beside me. Reality set in, but I will cling onto this dream because it makes me happy. I know this is hopeless but it is something....at least Hauk loves me in my dreams.