Journal Entry October 15, 2010

 Alone. I feel so alone. I know this is my own doing but it is still hard to take. I miss my sister dearly. I should go back to talk to her. I fear she hates me. And why wouldn't she? I did stab her and leave her for dead. I hate myself for doing that. The blood thistle addiction is getting worse I fear. I have to have it more often than ever before. How do I stop it? I must seek Galvan before I can return to Silvermoon. Biara cannot know about this addiction, she will think I am weak, which I am at the moment. I do not want her to think of me any worse than she already does.

My moods are irrational. Even while on the drug I find that I cannot control my emotions. I used to feel happy right after I had taken it, now I do for a short while and then my mood shifts so suddenly. I thought being away from everyone would help me, but maybe it only made the addiction worse. It's strange not talking to anyone really. A random goblin here or there but that is never good conversation. I miss Dayfire Spire, I miss Biara, I miss Hauk. I feel so empty right now, I must try to rectify things with my sister. I don't know how much longer I can go on this way...