I am sad today.
My head hurts. I have not been home yet. I know Biara says she wants to
talk things over but I'm scared, I'm beyond nervous. She reacted so
harshly when she first found out that I am half Kaldorei, I do not know
how her mind got swayed so easily. I know Hauk talked to her but still.
I'm not looking forward to our eventual meeting. I have been staying at
House Sunsword. Hauk is off trying to find Redessa. I should go home. I
do not feel totally at ease here. I will go home later today. I just
need one more day to myself. I can think here. Sort out all of my
emotions before facing them head on.
My head hurts. I have not even been drinking as of late. My head is just too full with so many thoughts and emotions. So much has happened. Will things ever be the same again? I mean really the same? How many people know my secret? How many people will spurn me knowing that I'm tainted? Knowing that my mother was a traitor of the Horde and the Sin'Dorei? Will they blame me for her mistakes? I hope not because I am just as angry at my mother as they will be. I simply cannot understand how she could do that to her people. For love? That just doens't make sense to me! I know love makes you do crazy things, but if Hauk asked me to betray my people to be with him, I could not do it. I have lost all respect for my mother after hearing what she did.
I have a sister too. I should seek her out. Does she even know of me? Would she even want to?
My head hurts. I have not even been drinking as of late. My head is just too full with so many thoughts and emotions. So much has happened. Will things ever be the same again? I mean really the same? How many people know my secret? How many people will spurn me knowing that I'm tainted? Knowing that my mother was a traitor of the Horde and the Sin'Dorei? Will they blame me for her mistakes? I hope not because I am just as angry at my mother as they will be. I simply cannot understand how she could do that to her people. For love? That just doens't make sense to me! I know love makes you do crazy things, but if Hauk asked me to betray my people to be with him, I could not do it. I have lost all respect for my mother after hearing what she did.
I have a sister too. I should seek her out. Does she even know of me? Would she even want to?
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