Journal Entry November 1, 2010

I spent last night under the stars with Andi. It was actually quite relaxing. I said this to him last night and actually meant it, he is unlike any other Kaldorei I have met before. The other Kaldorei do not seem as kind as him. It is still strange to me how I have tried to kill his sister on many occassions and the people of his race and yet he still wants to get to know me. I do believe that he loves me. He slipped and said it last night. This will work nicely with my plan. He is already enthralled with me. I do have to say though, he compliments me a lot and it does feel nice to hear. I have never had a man cling to my every word like he does. I do like the attention I must say!

I do find myself thinking about killing and fighting a little less when I am with him. I feel more relaxed. I also find that I need the Bloodthistle less when I am around him. This is strange to me. I will not follow in my mothers footsteps though! This is all a rouse, and I will use him to find out what I need. I will be the opposite of my mother. I will not become her. Yes he might make me feel loved and needed but I will not give in. I will play my game with him. It would seem I do not have to work hard at it since he is already head over heels for me.

I must find my sister and inform her about last night. I had voiced my concerns to her about being like my mother and she doesn't think that would happen. I am stronger than she was. I would never be a spy for the Alliance and betray my people. I know this in my heart.