Tonight was
strange. I wanted to be alone. I have been having this strange nagging
feeling at me for days now. Things are happening. Bad things. My body is
going through all of these changes. I just needed to be alone. I went
for a ride through Eversong Woods. The breeze was beautiful and it was
such a nice night. I was thinking of my mother again. Everything she
did. I found the tree that Lelliel had talked about in her visions. I
sat by it for a long time just thinking. I know this is going to sound
odd but in a way I could feel her spirit with me. I wish I could
communicate with her. I have so many questions for her. Why did she
become a traitor to our people, why did she fall in love and have
children with the enemy? Did she ever love the man that I had called
father?
I just don't know what to think. I'm glad I cannot communicate with her, she would not want to know what I have to say to her. She hid so many things from me that I should have been told about. My heritage, her betrayal, I needed to know these things. I don't know how I would be today if I had known these things. Would I be different? I think I might be. I guess they were kept from me for a reason, I am who I am today because of what I didn't know. I became a Blood Knight because of my mother's death.
As I was thinking I came across a strange plant. I didn't even realize it was there but I must have brushed up against it. I got this strange feeling when it touched me. It's hard to explain, but one minute I was sad and then I was happy. I had no cares in the world. But just as soon as I felt the happiness it was suddenly gone and I was even more depressed than before. This is a strange plant indeed. I find myself wanting to touch it more though. The feeling of euphoira lasts for about 10 minutes or so I think, and then the depression sinks in. I find myself trying to find more and more of this plant. Luckily there seems to be a lot around Eversong. Maybe I will contact Galvan, I think I heard that he knew a lot about plants and the like.
I just don't know what to think. I'm glad I cannot communicate with her, she would not want to know what I have to say to her. She hid so many things from me that I should have been told about. My heritage, her betrayal, I needed to know these things. I don't know how I would be today if I had known these things. Would I be different? I think I might be. I guess they were kept from me for a reason, I am who I am today because of what I didn't know. I became a Blood Knight because of my mother's death.
As I was thinking I came across a strange plant. I didn't even realize it was there but I must have brushed up against it. I got this strange feeling when it touched me. It's hard to explain, but one minute I was sad and then I was happy. I had no cares in the world. But just as soon as I felt the happiness it was suddenly gone and I was even more depressed than before. This is a strange plant indeed. I find myself wanting to touch it more though. The feeling of euphoira lasts for about 10 minutes or so I think, and then the depression sinks in. I find myself trying to find more and more of this plant. Luckily there seems to be a lot around Eversong. Maybe I will contact Galvan, I think I heard that he knew a lot about plants and the like.
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