Journal Entry October 19

 So last night was, well interesting. I was at Light's Hope Chapel helping to take out some undead in the area when I met someone. A strange druid sniffed me, and then I came to realize that it was my biological sister! She said she recognized me, this Saveenah. Apparently her father, I mean our father told her about me long ago, whereas I just found out about her a few weeks ago. She was surprised to find out that my mother never mentioned her to me. She told me that he is still alive. I might seek him out, but only to ask questions that I can no longer ask my mother. Maybe he can explain to me why my mother became a traitor to our people. Why she would keep my sister and my true father and heritage a secret from me. She put the memories in the necklace but never had any intention of me actually seeing these memories. I am still deeply hurt by this. Saveenah said that only someone pure of heart could unlock the memories. Am I not pure?

My mother made me this way! If it wasn't for her becoming a traitor and falling in love with the enemy and bearing his children, she would never have been murdered. I would have never had this instence hatred for the Kaldorei. Granted I still would not have liked them much but I hated them more after they killed my mother. If anyone is to blame for not being pure it is my mother. She was not pure herself! She tainted me! She lied to me every single day of my life. The father that raised me was not mine, my last name is not mine. Then she won't let me see these visions even after her death, why? Why did she keep this from me for so long whereas my biological father told Saveenah everything?

Did she really hate me that much? That she wanted to keep this all from me? If she hadn't died that day, and if Lelliel had never found my necklace, I still would not know the truth. My whole life has been a lie. Everything that I have worked for and dreamed for has been for nothing.

I must go find Biara, I do not want to keep this from her.